The eternal time-waster. The reason I feel the need to jump up and craft something out of mason jars. The main force behind my obsession with weddings. Also, the reason I often feel like the things I create aren’t really up to par.
Pinterest, in case you’re new here to the internet, is a website comprised of little ‘pins’ that you can save to your ‘boards’ as a way of easily finding them again later. What started out as me finding new outfit ideas or recipes quickly turned into an obsession that now spans 34 boards (plus 5 secret boards), 122 likes, and 4,113 pins. Four thousand pins. As in, four thousand things that I saw on the internet and decided I might want to reference back to. I pin absolutely everything, even things that have literally no relevancy to my life right now. I have an entire secret board dedicated to nursery decorations, though I am sitting here at 19, unmarried, and the thought of children 5 years into the future at minimum. But, obviously I need to pin all these ideas now, lest I forget. Or, you know, come up with some ideas of my own.
I love Pinterest, I really do. But its a complex love/hate relationship that has made me delete the app of my phone numerous times declaring, ‘That’s it! I’m done! That is the last “thinspiration” post I read about how nothing tastes better than thin!’ (Side note: Obviously people who believe that have never eaten bacon. Or pepperoni. Or McDonald’s at 2am after a night downtown. Just saying.) I honestly don’t even want to begin with the problem Pinterest has with these ‘fitness’ pages claiming that the way to lose 20 pounds is to drink nothing but dandelion water with cucumber for 5 days straight. Let me be perfectly clear on this one- in no way is that healthy, realistic, or ideal. Nothing can replace a balanced diet and regular exercise. But again, I’m just touching on this one. Maybe someday I’ll go full-on rant and let Thinspiration have its own post here. But, not today.
The subject of my post today was the embarrassment I felt after taking some pictures of something I had created from Pinterest. So yesterday was a Friday during Lent, and being Catholic (albeit not a model one), I don’t eat meat on those Fridays. So, it was up to me to try to figure out what we could eat for dinner, having minimal ingredients. I refused to eat yet another tuna sandwich, and Jake had succumbed to the idea of just a pb&j. ‘Alright, self’ I thought, ‘How can I make this pb&j worthy of calling dinner?’ So naturally, I took to Pinterest, and found this awesome article on making bad-ass sandwiches. Like, look how amazing that looks. Yum.
Image via buzzfeed.com
So I’m here, grilling my peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, thinking about how I could blog about them! I had the title set out and everything. I would start the post with, “Do you have 5 simple ingredients? Then you’ve got hot, delicious, melt-in-your-mouth pb&j sandwiches.” But, alas. My grilled sandwiches looked sad and limp compared to the amazing Buzzfeed models. Maybe it was my camera? Maybe it was my angle? Maybe it was the fact that I sort of burned one side of the sandwich, so a certain side had to be facing up. Unable to figure it out, I decided against the how-to post. Not sure anyone really wants the recipe to a sandwich that looks like this.
Image via my kitchen.
So, there’s that. My smooshed up, slightly burned, grilled PB&J. In case you’re curious, the sandwiches to the right are peanut butter with thinly sliced apples in the middle. This sandwich is delicious and different on its own, but I made the HUGE mistake of grilling it, which made the apples turn to mush and left me very sad. Visions of recipe blog posts that danced in my head were just sitting there on a plate full of disappointment, looking back at me and almost daring to say ‘See? You’re not a real blogger. You can’t even make a peanut butter and jelly sandwich.’ I gotta say though, those stupid smug sandwiches were delicious.
And at the end of the day, that’s what matters. I tried something new, and it tasted great! It honestly reminded me of one of my favorites from the Texas State Fair- deep-fried PB&J with banana sandwiches, served with powdered sugar on top. Deep-friend Texan heaven, basically. I accepted that maybe they just weren’t the prettiest, and ate my delicious sandwiches while scrolling though Pinterest again, now looking for how to build my perfect planner. I’ll let you know how that one works out :) Until then, have a beautiful day, and I hope to see you here next time!