Tuesday, 12/17/13

Dear Jacob: Today was a struggle. I didn’t realize how hard it would be to be away from you, and it’s only been 4 days with 4 more before I see you. I know it’s never the same as being able to hold you and hug you and kiss you, but please know that I’m trying my best to make us feel connected. There’s texts, calls, Snapchats, and Skype, not to mention all the times you cross my mind throughout the day. Hang in there, darling. Dear Distance: Fuck you and every feeling of disconnectedness that comes along with you. Dear Time: Please. Move. Faster. But once I’m with him you always seem to move too fast… just try to help me out here. Dear Forgiveness: Forgive me, for I always ask too much of you. Dear God: Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Assure me that this is all in Your plan, and I will trust that every hardship will be worth it in the end. Prove to me that things were meant to be, and allow us to see through these struggles; but, if not, allow me to accept the fact that maybe things never were. Lord, give me strength to accept Your plan, even if that means sacrificing my happiness for that of someone else. Dear J: You are one of the strongest people I know. You truly have the purest of hearts, and I admire how fearlessly you love. There are things I cannot change now, but can only hope to learn and grow from. You bring me so much happiness, enough to cover the pain of my mistakes, though I know they’re always there. Know that I love you more than you can imagine, and, if you let me, that I would spend a lifetime showing you. I miss you so much, darling, and I hope to see you soon.


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  1. Dear Alyssa through our hardships I’ve realized how much I we’ve grown as people and as a couple, I need to let go and forgive for your past transgressions and appreciate all that we have and fully accept the love that grows with every moment. Although the past was painful I realize now that our future is blossoming undoubtedly into a state of everlasting love for with love we can can overcome anything. Dear money issues fuck you Dear informed listener Ive made a campsite through these troubling times and continue to hope for the best, I’ve been carefully rationing the food ive collected from the plane and should have enough for at least a week or two which buys me time to hopefully find sanctuary somewhere and eventually find someone through this vast land. Although my time here seems eternal I find solace in the little things and although this hell I’ve lived in has changed me I feel this will have a positive effect on my life if god sees good fortune upon me. sincerely your friend.      

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